Random Childhood Memories Time!

I just remembered something silly while watching Sherlock's "A Study in Pink" again: when I was in sixth grade, primary school, I used to play around with a friend of mine saying I was Sherlock Holmes (I had a much longer name for that. It included my actual name) and he was my John "Guauson". He was my assistant and he was the one who used to lend me the magnifying glass, because he had one in his pencil case. Its name was "Lupita", because magnifying glass is "lupa" in spanish. Lupita's a diminutive for "Guadalupe", which is a proper name or, also, a diminutive for "lupa".

When I was in secondary school, the nickname "Sneaky Hawk" was born in my head and I started to call myself that. And it was funny because it's SH... Just as Sherlock Holmes :') I barely realised that a few months ago XD

Also, a girl from dubbing school told me she was scared of me because I just sat down, silent, watching them all and that I knew all their names and I noticed everything they were wearing and could describe them with my eyes closed. And...well, she's actually right :9

Dunno. Wanted to talk about that because I suddenly remembered :3 It seemed interesting :3 Ah, memories =w=

I'm still posting something regarding this week, the end of the world, the end of the year and my Sherlock review, as well as ROTG and maybe, just maybe Moonrise Kingdom and all the other movies I owe this blog ._____. XD

I'm still alive XD

Yeah, I am. Just posting here for you to know that. Not many things have happened. Most of them have to do with my acting class and growing nostalgia... I've been watching movies, reading and not doing much. I think we won't be celebrating Xmas here in the nest... Or, at least, not a very merry one. Dunno. The feeling here's kinda down and it makes me sad.

I need money too u.u Haven't got much... I'm slightly worried about that. Need to find myself a job already.

On the bright side, Karu gave me the first (and maybe only) Xmas gifts of this year. And I feel all shitty because I think I won't be able to get her something. There are people I wanna see, but I might not be able to because of the lack of money again. Fecking money, why do we all need you so much? And why aren't you here? ¬¬ You piss me off to no end, but don't go away. Because I fecking need you.

I'm trying to wake up my manliness... But unfortunately, my femininity seems to be rising instead :I At least when I dress myself D: XD I hate that. I hate the damsel in distress role. I don't think (and I don't want to think) it goes well with me. I need to let go of certain things, but stupid nostalgia and Twitter doesn't help much, so I'm thinking whether I should just shut that bloody thing down. For my own good XD

Don't think I haven't been checking your blog, Kuro hun. I'll comment on every single post you've uploaded as soon as...I dunno XD But, mark my words, I will! XD

On a side-note:

I started watching Sherlock about two weeks ago. On Wednesday I finally managed to watch the first episode complete. Then I watched the second one...and started the third one. Yesterday I watched the fourth and part of the fifth. I finished watching it all tonight and-I-fecking-loved-it. I really, REALLY did. I might review it here. I'm not good at reviewing stuff, but I have a mighty need to do this because it's worth commenting and discussing and all. Although...don't expect much since I suck so much at doing that...and at English too, so...

Bonus :DDD

In order to commemorate this new acquisition, here's this, from geothebio @ tumblr XD

I need to go the fuck to sleep too XD

She's got tickets to her own show...

But she doesn't want any of them to go-o-o~

Changed the lyrics XD

A-ny-ways.

Saturday's exam was great :DDD Well, at least it was...I dunno if "better-than-expected"'s the phrase I'm looking for, but yeah... Something like that XDDD

I managed to wake up when I had to (6:30 am, saturday morning X_x) and then I proceeded to "smart" myself up (which, in this case, means: Take a shower, put clothes on, brush your teeth and leave the building). Right before I ran through the door, my mum came out, with her bed-face still put, tried to smile and asked me: "You're already leaving? :D" I obviously answered "yeah :)" and she then told me: "Do your best, sweetie. Text me once you've done great :D" I smiled truthfully, hugged her, kissed her head and then left. She wanted to go and also did my dad but, in the end, they told me they wouldn't go because they didn't want me to be nervous u.u

When I arrived, my friend B was outside with her boyfriend. We chatted for a while and then the teachers got there too. We stayed downstairs and B gave me a yogurt because I was  starving and I didn't want my angry stomach to rawr in the middle of the play D: Then, V came and we went upstairs in order to get ready.

And so we did. It was such a show at that moment D: My classmates had to wear special make up to look like...dead people. And I had to look as though I just went out of the morgue ._____. Which means: make up... A LOT of it. I dunno how to make up... So I was waiting as everyone were busy with their own faces...until B came to rescue me...right after she had to comb and dress another girl's hair...which...wasn't really nice because her hair was dirty and stuff u.u

Anyways, the two hours we had to get ourselves ready ran absurdly fast D: Suddenly, all the people that went to see the exam were there and we were all frustrated and tired XDDD But we entered the room (it is a room indeed XD) and we started. Since I was the last one to enter, I waited outside and repeated all my friends' lines. At least the ones I knew by heart...not all of them. Surprisingly, I didn't feel nervous or anything. I didn't even go over my lines all over again. I was just so sure they would come to me as soon as I went in...because, happily, Lidia's intervention is quite smooth. So, yeah...

I took my glasses off and the place was quite dark because we were supposed to be inside a crypt, so I think that also helped XDDD

After we finished, they asked us to repeat the play for the people who didn't make it into the room... Legend says the school's headmistress was on the verge of tears at the end of it. So we did it again, right after the choir exam and the dubbing exam. And it went even better than the first one. The dubbing teacher told us he was nicely surprised because we managed to make him feel all the angst and drama and all that in his chest. So, he was happy because that was the point.

When he went near me, he hugged me (he always does when I see and greet him, but this time he did it way too tightly) and said: "You were amazing. You almost made me cry... Really, thank you. You were great...". I was happy because he's been an actor for more than 30 years...and he studied at one of the most prestigious drama school's here in my country... I was so honoured. I didn't see him staying any longer with any of my classmates... I felt special >//3//>

Then, photosphotosphotosphotos, smiles, tears, comments, congrats, stuff... B was amazing. She was my mother in the play :3 But she also helped us all with our outfits and make-up and everything. And she also, obviously, acted. She's an amazing person u.u

After we took off the make-up and the outfits we were wearing for the play and also managed to clean up all our mess, we left. Before that, we went and said good-bye to all the others. When I went to the dubbing teacher, he said, again, that I surprised him way too much. I think he was in awe because these were my first three months there (most of the cast had been there for like...six months already)... And...well, he doesn't know this, but it's true: I've never really acted in my whole life. Only in silly primary school plays...where I was Michael Archangel (always) and my greatest accomplishment was kicking the devil's ass (which also happened to be the boy I liked back then =w= XD). The only thing I've done is giving light-hearted, silly "shows" to my friends whenever I start talking...and reading novels, fanfiction and my own writing out loud...just because. And also because I love impersonating people and random movie-cartoon-anime-stuff characters...so...yeah.

After that, B told me I owned the play...and that she realized, that week, that she was jealous of me ._____. Then I told her not to be because she was AWESOME. And we both still needed to improve a lot u.u It's true. I admire her way too much u.u 

That somehow scares me ._____.

She also asked me not to leave this because she'd love to see me acting and stuff... And also whether I could teach English to the girl that's teaching her to sing, so she could teach me how to sing too... She's an opera singer ._____. XD

I sometimes think she's kinda pushy and bossy... But truth is...I'd love to learn how to sing :'DD But I can't teach anything to save my life, so... XDDD And I like B way too much :3 She's sweet and nice and caring~ XD

*sigh*

It's kinda sad because they're leaving to the next module and I'm gonna be alone (well, there'll be like...three classmates there...the ones that entered the class when I did... But my friends were the ones who are leaving  now u.u). There should be new people too...but I dunno u.u Obviously, it won't be the same u.u

Then we went to drink coffee and celebrate and it was nice ^w^ And I...somehow felt guilty because I somehow didn't let my parents attend the exam u.u *sigh*

On Sunday, E, another friend, uploaded some vids of the presentation... I linked Karu to them and she told me she liked the way my voice sounded very much. She was...somehow...overwhelmed... .____. I think she knows what she's talking about because she's seen this play like...thousands of times before, so... Then I showed two of those vids to my mum and she said she didn't recognise me at first...and less she did when I started talking. She said my voice sounded different. My dad says he felt something in his chest when he heard me talking the way I did... Even my brothers thought I was great...and that I really didn't sound like myself at all...

I guess that's a good thing... ^^;

But I've still got to improve a lot more u.u I won't get stuck! >''<9

Random notes...

* I feel so confident lately...and that makes me feel happy :3

* My thesis teacher hasn't sent me anything yet u.u

* SID's newest single's finally out. I got it like a week ago... I LOVED the B-side, as I tend to do. And I truly do believe it relates way too much to my Karma stuff ;^; *creys* (aka: she tried to translate it). Might put it here, someday...

* I might start Japanese next January...and another language. I dunno whether I should choose romanian or russian XD

* I've been back to Twitter... But I still don't feel all good when I twit u.u I'm still feeling slightly uncomfortable. But I don't feel as bad as I used to when I saw them both twitting to each other. Also, I'm still feeling impatient. But I still think it's not time yet...

* I got my driving license this morning =w= XDDD

...and bonus :P

VINCENT PHANTOMHIVE!!!! :VVVV From Kuroshitsuji =w= Sorry. I dunno why, but I love this character. Although...he doesn't really appear much because he's dead ._____. But when he appears in  flashbacks, I tend to have these fangirl attacks and stuff... XDDD Here you have him~ =w= In all his school boy splendor~ <3 XDDD

Am gonna keep it up and I'm doing my best to improve lots more! I feel so inspired to do that~ :3

And...this is about to end, I guess...

Et je me sens mieux...

Today is the last day of the semester :D School's official Twitter account already bid farewell to our generation. I sent my teacher the first two chapters of my graduation project last night and I had my last beloved MNM class. It was quite fun :D Although I was kinda tired and I kept yawning u.u

And then...

Tomorrow's my first acting exam. And I'm kinda...uneasy =A= Ha...haha...ha. I do know all my lines, but I still feel like that. I guess that's normal... My teacher told me it was good that I felt all nervous because that meant I was in the right place. I guess...that means you need to be over-sensitive for these kinda things .____.

But I don't really like to feel that bad D:

I say so because I was so nervous the first day I played Lidia (not when I read her part, but when I already knew she was mine) that, when I came back to the nest, my head hurt like hell, I threw up and I went to sleep at 7:30 pm... =______=

Next day I was quite alright .______. I just hope I can do a good job u.u They told us we'd have professional voice actors in the audience... *dies*

Also...

It's been two months already. Last Wednesday, actually. Ha...haha *sigh* I must say I feel a lot better. And I'm somehow impatient. But I don't wanna push things. I somehow feel it's not time... Not yet. Then, I start feeling anxious and feeling I need to talk to her again because...she might not like me anymore whenever I decide it is the right time to come back. But then I tell myself it might be that...my time's been over for eight months already...

And then Tú comes and hits my head... And tells me to mind my own business for now and that time will come if it ever has to. And if it doesn't, then it's also OK. We did our best as long as we were there and as much as we could and we need to follow the winds of change XDDD

Maybe he's right. I feel this mighty need of being my life's main character for once (yeah, I thought I was the secondary character and the only reason I was here was to help other people out. But lately, there's been  this impatience in Tú telling me I need to take this more seriously u.u)... I should be starting already.

...And she just faved the twit I retwited from my school .____. Hahaha... Ha >3>

And I can't write decently well anymore ;^; *creys manly tears of sorrow*

*sigh*

Bonus! :D

'Pool... Because he's awesome and I love him and he always makes me feel better even if his own life's horrible u.u :)

Wish me luck ;^; XD I should be sleeping already .______. XD

Just for the record...

My brother called me "gay" today.

My granny called me "queer" today too.

My brother called me "gay android" today when I came back from my granny's house because I was wearing an Android t-shirt with a pink bow on top of its head.

And I remembered this:

It's right at the end. But, yeah. You may watch it all if you'd like XD It's hilarious XD

Was today the National Let's-All-Talk-About-Rincon's-sexual-inclination Day and I wasn't aware of that? XDDDD

On a side note...

I've already learned all my lines~ :BBB XD

Things are happening... XD

So, here we are... In the blooming flower of our youth, with a whole path ahead of us and then...

Suddenly you don't really know what you gonna do XD

I always knew I wanted to write. I also knew I wanted to do something with my voice. Not that my voice is amazing, but I was keen on that. Then I stated I would write...but also correct and edit other people's work. I also wanted to learn to play (or at least listen carefully) music... 

I'm not saying I'm gonna act for a living, because...I still dunno why all this is happening. But the fact that this is another door opening makes me feel kinda encouraged and happy :3 That means I'm not as useless as I thought I was :3

*sigh*

I'll explain myself because I wanna XDDD

Two weeks ago, I went to my acting class, as I always do XDDD But we were out of people because...well, we assumed that it was because semester's near to its end and people are getting busy. We didn't have enough people to cover up all the characters in the main play we're rehearsing. So, my teacher told me: "You're gonna play Lidia today..." Lidia's like...the main character of that play. And I was like: "But I'm Eva... You sure?" He told me not to worry and to do as I was told. So... I entered as Eva, I said my line as I always did... And then came back as Lidia (because she appears later on). When I started acting as Lidia...I could hear my teacher mumbling: "This is so touching..." but I didn't say anything or reacted in any visible way. I just snorted quietly and went on. Of course, I had to read the whole thing, but I tried my best to put some inflections and motion to whatever I said.

So, as we finished, he told us to go and sit so we could talk about the rehearsal. As I went to my place, a friend told me: "You should change and play Lidia! You were amazing!" I only laughed and told her: "Well, go and tell that to the teacher! XD" and then I added: "No. Thank you very much for your words, but she's Itza's and I really am in love with Eva :)" And then the teacher came and told me:

"You did an incredible job at this. You gave the character a whole new personality, your voice tunes, the way you acted. I even think they (my classmates) felt a lot more comfy with you. You're showing me that...you could've done whatever part I would've given you...whether it was the old lady, the girl...even a man. You really do have a knack for acting. I really think so. Now you're putting me in a difficult situation because I gave you the foreign woman because you could do the accent at the moment I asked you to do it. But it'd be unfair for the girl who's playing Lidia for real, so...I'm sorry. I'm not giving you this part. But you really did a good job at this and I'm sure you can do whatever I ask you to... Thank you".

And I was all happy because he didn't take Eva from me XD

The rest of the class were my friends telling me how much they enjoyed my Lidia interpretation...and me thanking them... One of them (the same girl who told me she would've wanted me to play that character from now on) told me it was the first time she actually felt the angst in Lidia. And I told her that...maybe...just maybe that was because the other girl gave the impression she didn't know what she was saying. Meaning: she didn't fully comprehend Lidia.

So. That happened that day.

Last weekend I dreamt about the play and I was slightly uneasy. I somehow felt that part was meant to be mine... But I thought I was overthinking everything, as I often do. And I still love Eva D: So, I tried not to think much about that anymore.

But yesterday, I was...in a hurry. I wanted to write as much as I could of my thesis work because I thought I wouldn't have time to write today. Then I told myself: "But you don't have school tomorrow"... But I still felt sure I was going to have things to do today.

And today came my teacher's mail telling me he was giving me that part... But I think that's because the girl who was playing it won't come back. So, the main character's mine. And I'm gonna miss Eva ;^; I couldn't do much today because I was trying to learn her lines by heart u.u And also because a stupid silly mountain of dishes waited for me to wash them...and because mum wanted me to stay with her u.u

So, yeah! :D It's weird to be told you are good at something you first thought you sucked at. But I really am trying my best and I think people can tell, so... I'm glad and thankful for that :3

Bonus:

I think Bram Stoker would die again if he knew that tomorrow, a day after his 165th birthday, will be Breaking Dawn's opening night.

I'd like to kill all the twilighters, tho =w=

Nevertheless, happy 165th birthday, Mr Stoker. You were irish and a writer...and you wrote Dracula. I love you.

And this:

Here is a story to break your heart...

...Are you willing?

*creys*

Journey into Mystery #645 ;^; I found them at tumblr. I read the last 5 numbers and I was all ;^; half the time *creys more* Kid!Loki rocks ;^;

I want a copy of #645, because the art is beautiful. But I think there are none here ._____.

My world for a Paperman-like romance!

>O<9

Today I watched Wreck-It Ralph. I confess that, as many other persons, I didn't expect much of it. But I must say I was nicely impressed, although I do believe it isn't a children movie. All the references of old arcade games...well, I think only kids with older (but OLDER) brothers...or young parents or kids at heart will appreciate it and laugh at them u.u I say so because that's what happened today at the theatre. Karu and I were the only ones laughing and there were like...8 kids (they were like 10-11 years old) and they just weren't laughing as much as she and I did XDDD Also its music was great! I loved it much! >w<9 It was composed by Henry Jackman (also composed xmfc's soundtrack, btw :P). Ralph's such a sweetheart ;^; And his friendship with Vanellope's warms my heart in this cold weather =w= XDDD

Also, I loved Calhoun and Felix~ <3 <3 <3 <3 Calhoun's hoooooot and such a badass :BBBB

And PAPERMAN! OMG! PAPERMAN!! I want a romance like that, pretty please? °((>w<))° XDDD Its animation, its music, its story... Superb, really. Fecking Disney, mate >''<

I also loved the dubbing u.u Although... I'm still not very much satisfied with María Antonieta de las Nieves... I do know she was a dubber when she was younger and all. And I even stood up for her when Karu's friends said she was only star-talent. But now that I listened to her in that role...I think you can tell her voice didn't really suit Vanellope that well u.u It felt forced...and somehow rough u.u I do respect her work...but...geee... I really do think she wasn't the best option u.u I had to eat my words this time u.u

As for the others... Shame on me. I just needed like...two words...two effing words and I could tell who they were XDDDD I'm ill, prolly XDDD But I love it!! I feel so happy when I can tell who they are :BBB

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That aside, I've been feeling a lot better. Sometimes, I get a little bit depressed, but I stand up again because I've not much time to lose now >3> End of semester's near...and I still haven't done anything of my thesis work... Although I've read some stuff already XDDD

Problem's I need to write it and I don't feel like thinking much XDDDD

I'll start writing tomorrow u.u I'm kinda tired today XDDD

Bonus :DDDD

By Onac911@tumblr

Makes me laugh XDD

And extra bonus, also by her:

Stoopid. But made me laugh way too much XDDD

Creepy inspiration...I guess XD

I suddenly got inspired...and started writing stupid stuff ._____. You know...like quotes, but not quite, 'cos they're mine and all... But they were kinda angsty XDDD

So, yeah. I think it must be the atmosphere. You know...Halloween and stuff.

I'm planning to go visit the Día de Muertos ofrendas at CU with my family. But I dunno if it'll be possible u.u I'll bring photos if I can, tho :D

Anyways, Happy Halloween, everyone~! :3

Today there's no bonus...because I'm tired XD

Love? Or something else? :3

The word "love" doesn't exist in the mixteca imaginarium. There is no word in mixteco to name such an abstract concept. But there is something you can say in that language that's similar to the "love" concept. She didn't tell us what the word was (the mixteca writer that told us all this), but she did tell us what it meant in Spanish and I'll translate it in English now:

Tu esencia se encontró con la mía.
Your essence met mine.

Tu esencia me tomó.

Your essence took me.

Mixtecas are the people of the rain :3 Their language, in their own words, is known as "words of the rain".

*sigh* Such a nice concept... Such beautiful things, different cosmogony: transformation as well. So amazing...

And all that's in my own country. I wish I had more time and people to teach me those languages u.u I'd love to learn mixteco and tsoltsil :BBB Also náhuatl...but mixteco sounds so much like chinese and tsoltsil is more like...crackling fire~ <3 A lot more click-clack~ =w=

I know. I always come and type here whatever silly thing comes to my mind or happens in my life. Today it ain't something silly. It's something pretty :) And magical. I loved my class...but I love it a lot more now :BBB

Bonus! Talking about change and transformation :BB

A butterfly~ :3

Special mention to Karu because tomorrow's her first day at work...and she was kind enough to go and see me today.

This was it :)

I'm uncontrollably excited XDDD

I finally told her what I felt... And she apologised and she explained... Not that she actually had to. But she told me nice things and that lifted that damn heavy weight from my back and my heart and all ;^; I'm so happy. I think I haven't felt like this ever since last year *creys*

So, let's keep this thing up! I'm happy, happy and uncontrollably excited. Things are getting better and I have to keep that up, no matter how hard it seems!

My acting teacher told me he thinks I'm good at acting. I don't think so myself, but it's good to know people like whatever silly things I come up with. He's not the only one. Friends there have told me the same. I dunno...

I'm gonna miss them when they leave for next module ;^; I'm gonna stay with my younger classmates...and I dunno if I am excited because of that.

I need to start, seriously, with that thesis now >3> Time's almost up! TOT

Mah, we'll sort it out somehow :BBB

Bonus! :DDD

Because it's funny. And I loved that hand XDDD

Light, light, light~

Light. Light as bright as I haven't seen in weeks appeared right before me today.

And I also felt lighter XD

Oh, irony. Who would've said I would have such a promising career in something I never really considered myself to be good at? XDDD

Who would've said you, among all people, would make me feel better? But not the way one would imagine XDDD

I'm such a bitch, really D: Sometimes... But what else do you want me to do? When I don't feel like doing stuff, then I don't feel like doing it and that's it. Same happens with longing...

There's something rotten in here...

And someone told me they thought me a mezzo D: XD Weird XDDD I've always thought my voice's way too light D:

*le sigh* Let's keep this up and see how much it lasts.

Btw, INSONA UPDATED!!! :DDDDDD

OMG! After a year or so of no update...here it came!

Today couldn't've been better, I tell ya :BBB

Random note~

According to my last Multicultural Nation class, when shadows leave people’s bodies, they seek dark corners to keep warm because, in the absence of their body, they get cold… And the person who loses his/her shadow, gets ill.

I always tend to look for corners… I sit there and I sleep there...

Does that mean I’m a body-less shadow? o.o XDDD

I liked that conception, if I must be honest :9

So. Now I’m a body-less shadow~ <3 But no-body lost me XDDD

(Note: They told us that because we were speaking about traditional medicine in my country :3 There’s still a bit of magic in the air, y’know?)

Bonus. Just because :DDD

Let's move forward. I'm doing my best, I swear u.u Well...not really. But I'm gonna try harder! >w<9 Because I'm worth it XDDDDD And it's fair :3

Main & second & third~

The nest opened its branches to let someone in XDD And the first thing that certain individual did was staring at the modest bookcase that welcomes people in...but never really gets the chance to do so, since not many people tend to step inside. But that individual did. Also agreed it certainly is a very small nest. Everyone disappeared behind the white wooden boards that turned to coal. Even if it's dark and gloomy and small, it's still beloved home for me.

That was because, after cancellation, we headed towards the artsy meadow, in order to rest on the lawn...as we waited for a signal. Since that signal never came, I had to create it myself XDDD

And we were accepted. So, we flew to the nest...and then, ran towards second home, a yellow and curious castle protected by a five headed cerberus :3 We spent most of the day speaking and telling our deepest, darkest secrets to the wide-smiled-enchantress that opened the castle's door in order to let us inside. And she listened, patiently and nicely, until dusk took the sun as its hostage and hunger thrived on engulfing our stomachs inside out XDDD

After satisfying our hunger and quenching our thirst, we proceeded to watch the magical mirror --which kindly told us epic stories-- and then laughed because the enchantress' sibling came in...until we had to part inside the small, yet noble steed that waited in order to take us in a trip where we were attacked from the entrails of our own bodies by tickling-old-nasty-tunes. Then, we enjoyed a bit more of the epic stories until my comrades fell under the tempting spell of the dreams...

Then the mirror was shut down and a soft murmur of conversation filled the air. Afterwards, all that could be heard were deep breathings and some horses running downhill.

Hours before that, a slight bit of yesterday suffered a loss and I wouldn't know about that until now. As for that moment, I was dreaming of a certain arachnid character...

We watched chimpanzees fighting their way through life...climbing and eating and smashing and killing at the beat of beautiful music.

Then, we ate sweet, round, puffy saucers...and, after that, I had a conversation with the guardians of the castle... Before I could do anything to resist, I got separated from my first companion and the enchantress and her sibling abducted me. When I came back to my senses, I was in a place attacked by a radiant sun and I was wearing black...

I saw blue uniforms with a crossed white line on them. I heard a couple of detonations. I frowned. The taste of earth on my mouth and the licking sun weren't as bad as I thought they'd be and I screamed and yelled of joy as I watched the game begin... I stole some images of it and saved them in one of the sibling's portable mirror.

They were victorious. Then, they celebrated with liquid gold and some sliced and crisped tubers. A dog's nose was bleeding and the back of another was too. It was late already. I had to leave. I did... Wind rushed through my hair strands and I felt happy...

Then I woke up. And I fed myself. And I knew of the night loss. And I worried about the eldest... Although I was told no one would tell her anything u.u

I just hope she'd be alright u.u

This is the end indeed. And I'm glad. Transformation. We certainly need it :) But I still need to clean myself before I can leave again to my new adventure :) 

And I know where you live again XDDD

Many, many bonuses :D

I needed to because it's so funny XDDDD

The arachnid I dreamt about drawn by Azer, one of my favourite artists :BBB ;v;~<3

And, also drawn by her:

I love her style, sorreeeeeeh ;O; 

See ya later, lizards~ :') XD

Just because I LOVE this song XD

Wasted Years

Slow is the memory

And I can picture her standin' right in front of me

Said that I'm behaving badly

And kind of driving her crazy,

But I know she wants me

I remember everything

Her sweat, it tastes like sugar cane

And sitting on top of me, yelling out my fucking name

Until I'm empty

But I know she wants me

But I have already tried to explain myself

It's not that I love someone else

But I can't bear to listen to you cry

Sick of all these wasted years

Drowned in someone else’s tears

You let me down now I'm hanging you out to dry

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Yeah, yeah, yeah

And I'll see you when I get back

Maybe we can get ourselves back on the right track

You touch me there because you know how much I like that

I think that we both need to relax, you know you want me

All the time and everywhere

A happy surface but the underbelly isn't there

And the worst thing is that I don't even really care

And the emptiness is too much to bear

But I have already tried to explain myself

It's not that I love someone else

But I can't bear to listen to you cry

Sick of all these wasted years

Drowned in someone else's tears

Let me down now I'm hanging you out to dry

'Cause sometimes I don't know what to do

I'm scared to stand right in front of you

The way our pain subsides

Can't bear the stare of your teary eyes

I know you feel like it's hard to stay

In fact you may just wanna run away

Now all that I can really say is baby oh

Deep down you know, yeah

I have already tried to explain myself

It's not that I love someone else

But I can't bear to listen to you cry

Sick of all these wasted years

Drowned in someone else’s tears

You let me down now I'm hanging you out to dry

...already tried to explain myself

It's not that I love someone else

But I can't bear to listen to you cry

Sick of all these wasted years

I’m drowned in someone else’s tears

You let me down now I'm hanging you out to dry

Oh, no, no, Oh, no, no

You dry

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I wanna write something. Dunno what XDDD

Been putting Tú in a weight gain regime lately XDDD It's been fun. We're enjoying it much~ <3You know, since winter's coming and all that. We need to be warm and cosy for the cold coming soon and all that shit XDDD

Been sending mails everywhere too XDDD Lesse who hooks up :9

Music, songs, music, songs and music still. And arts. We all have severe mental diseases... But it's fine as long as they end up being productive XD

That is the case :BBB

I know where you live, btw XDDD

Bonus:

LOL. Found it when I was looking for Brian Molko's pics XDDD So accurate. I love Placebo...and I love its vocalist too :BBBB Way too much XDDD He's such a diva XDDD They released a new mini album yesterday~ <3

Mister Grumpy Grumps XD

I can't stand the smell of cigarette plaiting with my hair strands...or my clothes' threads...

But everything leaves when you participate in such a stimulating conversation...and also when you take a shower XD

Moka, chocolate, two cigarette packets and a half... Dreams, trips, perspectives... Hopes, again, thank Odin. 

Sudden calm. I think that's what I needed after such a "long" week. Hehehe XDD

Well, they say everything happens for a reason. And I definitely agree. This was something good...enlightening, lightening and good :3

Doors opening, opening wide... Light gets through it and I have to decide where to run XDDDD 

For the first time in my life I feel I'm doing the right thing :3 And that I'm being fair with myself. I'm proud :DDD

I feel kinda rusty, tho XDDD But strangely free and light too. I can think now because I don't think much anymore and that helps me to breathe freely.

I can't walk up the school's deadly ramp because I hiperventilate now :DD Stupid lungs. You're getting way too big XDDD

...

...Fuck this shit! This is how it's gonna be from now on~♪ :P

And, well, music again XD Mwahahaha~!! Getting back to my crush XPP

This silly little Midgardian blog of mine... I like it~ ANOTHER!! :VVVV °((>w<))° *dances*

Bonus :DDDD

Deadpool owns grumpy cat :BBB

By Onac~♪ XDDDDDD

Say hello to the 'Pool :B

* Stuff happened and now I'm writing this thanks to Deadpool XDD Oh, Wade, Y U so handsome? XD I think I'm in loooove~ <3 XD

* I'd better start taking this seriously...or else, I might end up doing nothing and that ain't an option >w<9

* I've been way too tired. As in...tired and...sick of everything XD I want it to end already. It just won't go away from me... But I should give it a try :9

* I love Luc Besson's view on action films and his male main characters. He always makes me love them u.u Maybe it's because his stories tend to have a slight taste of true love in them (as in...general true love) and I am a helpless romantic.

* Been listening to new music. Passion's coming back to me but it ain't here quite yet.

* Doors are closing and I still have to think a lot about what's gonna stay and what's gonna leave. I've two more months to decide.

* The hole's getting smaller...

* Today, in Japan, was the first airing of Magi. I didn't know the manga, but I did know SID was gonna make the opening theme. Here it is :D

Its single will be out in November, I believe :3 I read Magi's first chapter...and I loved Aladdin chaaaaan~ He's so cute XD

* Today's one of my beloved sister's birthday. I love you way too much, Karu. You know I do. I hope you had a fantastic day and that this year is amazing for you :) I'll be giving you your birthday presents whenever we see each other again :)

Points. Nothing else. I love V.I.P :DDD Back to Aivi, tho XD

P.S.: I'm still intrigued by Matt Smith's facial features ._____. XD

Hang on! Though we try...it's gone~ ♪

♪I hold an image of the ashtray girl

Of cigarette burns on my chest

I wrote a poem that described her world

And put our friendship to the test

And late at night

Whilst on all fours

She used to watch me kiss the floor

What's wrong with this picture?

What's wrong with this picture?

Farewell the ashtray girl

Forbidden snowflake

Beware this troubled world

Watch out for earthquakes

Goodbye to open sores

To broken semaphore

You know we miss her

We miss her picture

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Farewell the ashtray girl

Angelic fruitcake

Beware this troubled world

Control your intake

Goodbye to open sores

Goodbye and furthermore

You know we miss her

We miss her picture

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Hang on

Though we try

It's gone

Hang on

Though we try

It's gone

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Can't stop growing old...♪

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Present, past... People leave... Some stay. Very, very few.

Past, present. People come back... Some leave. A whole bunch of them.

I've been talking to a high-school friend. I thought we wouldn't have much to say to each other. It's been  about two years since we last saw each other. Surprisingly, even now, we're still laughing together and making plans. It ain't awkward, it ain't uncomfortable. It's very nice, actually. She was one of my dearest high-school friends and I always thought I loved her a lot more than she could've loved me because she never was warm enough...and she used to say she didn't like me being so...freaking huggy-dubby and stuff. So, I stopped doing that with her XD

Then, when we were on 6th grade, she told me half her heart belonged to me XD I laughed so much when she told me so, but it was sweet. I enjoyed being with her because we always talked lots and laughed... Even when we were talking about problems...we always laughed at them and were very keen on thinking everything positively. We also listened to music and drew and sang together and played and ran and laughed a little more like silly little girls when we were like...15 or something... I loved being with her. I always stayed till late at school in order to keep talking with her... I even took her bus home in order to continue...

I think I've never really done that with anyone else. She was an exception XD

*sigh* Now we're planning a podcast to laugh at our silly stuff. We used to record some of our conversations with my mobile phone and then laugh at them when we listened to them again. It was great.

It's nice to know we can still talk. I was scared we wouldn't be able to anymore. That's my biggest fear when it comes to friends because I absolutely love to talk and laugh and say stupid things XD

Anyways: This picture! That one's up there because I once made her recite the first part of it to me XDDD And she did! And also because this and another Placebo song (which I won't mention here because its name's embarrassing X///DDD) remind me very, very, very much of her =w=

She brain-washed me into them in the first place, anyways =w=

Well, not really, I already liked their music, but then stuff came and I forgot about them until she kindly presented them to me again and made me watch all the vids she had of them and lent me her CDs and all =w= In. A. Day. Just one. Yep XDDDD

It was fun tho. And they're good =w= I still love 'em XD

Madam Molko up there too, btw... Well, Mr Molko, more like XP

Here we go~ XDDD B-day post!

The so longed and wanted and desired b-day post XDDD Chanchanchaaaaaan~!

'Kay, not that much, but meh XDDD

I said I was gonna post it next month, didn't I? Well, it's October already, dammit! >''<

Such a short year D: So many things have happened. Gee. I can't even... u.u

Well, yeah, as a matter of fact... I can! I'm still alive, ain't I? But I haven't written anything for my thesis and then there's french...and those sudden urges of leaving everything attack me out of the blue and...well... XDDDD

Meh, here I come :)

I celebrated with my friends drinking freaking Nutella shakes at some restaurant! °((>w<))° They were so OMGsofreakingawesomeIlovedthem. 'Sides, I didn't know Nutella ice cream even existed D:

I dunno if I'd like to taste it. Might be way too sweet .______.

Anyways, here are the mighty shakes :B

So! We spent a nice time there and then went to have a walk at the park...and it was nice and all. At night, Ju called me to wish me happy birthday, but she was at work...and I was making her laugh. I'm such a bad girl :P Mwahahaha! XD

Next day (officially, my birthday), I went to my acting class XD I had a nice day~ <3 And I was almost leaving when a friend (yep, she's a friend already because she's been way too freaking nice with this freak and I vowed to love her ever since u.ú XDDD) asked me what did I want to do to celebrate my birthday. I told her I was gonna go and eat some tacos with my parents but she told me she wanted to celebrate with me: "Let's go get a coffee, at least. I don't want this to go unnoticed". So, we went to have a coffee. It was awesome :) My coffee and a birthday moka donut went on her ./////.  I was really happy, talking about my life and fandoms and stuff XDDD And they're such nice people :)

Then I ran back to the nest because my family was starving already XD So, we went to eat tacos :9 On the way back home, we bought a cake for me (my brothers, more like XD) and we ate and were happy. Also, lots of messages in Facebook, mostly, were received.

That was my birthday. Next day all I did was watch Thor =w=

So. Here are the presents :3

Spideypool in the first one!! :VVV Not in the second one, but it was great! :BB

Deadpool kills the Marvel Universe. Yes, I bought them. Yes, I read them XD

These are part one of my own present XDDD Well, actually, Karu bought the second one in the first pic u.u Thank you so much for helping my insane growing fanatism, Karurururúru~ <3 XDDD

Then :D

The Neverending Story by Michael Ende :3

As I said before, Karu gave me this one that week's Monday. I've started reading it and I love it so far :3 I'm right in the middle of it. And I sort of see a bit of myself in Fújur XDDD Lalala~

She also gave me this:

Yukio Mishima's Kamen no kokuhaku~ <3

I've been wanting to read this book ever since my team and I did a gay literature magazine project for Design class :3 A friend of that team sent me a piece of it...and I was like: "DAMN! This man..." I mean...the way he describes and the way he makes you feel whatever he's telling you about... My Lord... He's just amazing! >w< I wanna read this as soon as I can :3

Then, these:

A fish-y bookmark :3

A business card XD Ha!

A froggy keychain :3

A chococake~ XDDD

Those were all Aio's ^^ Thank you very much~ <3 You are so thoughtful.  It was nice seeing you again :3 The froggy keychain's already guarding my keys XD I loved it all~ <3

Hm...then... Oh, yeah! THE PACKAGE XDDD As I said, I was gonna open it until that saturday... And, after getting an inbox from Kuro, right at 12 o'clock, I got permission to open it XD And these are all the nice things that were inside it~ :3

Spidey and Deadpool pins~ <3

A Batman: The Dark Knight Rises glowing sticker~ <3

Marvel stickers~ <3

A poster~ <3

Same poster~ <3 XD

A Deadpool comic! >w< XD <3

And the letter~ <3

I loved it all, Kuro hun! I really did! Thank you very much °((>w<))° You're so nice with me ;^; I don't deserve you T^T9

And, last but not least, this :BBBB

AVENGERS!! :VVVV

Yup, yup!: Earth's mightiest heroes! °((>w<))° This was part two of my birthday present, from me to me XD

And those were my birthday presents :3

Also, I finally got my Raven beanie :DDDD

Yes, those are my eyes. Don't get too excited. Was thinking whether it was prudent to show the other pic where...my face actually appears...but no XDDD I still have to pay for it, tho XDDD

My head's way too big D: XDD Poor beanie XD

Lalala~ <3

So, that's it! :D I also went to watch this beautiful movie with Karu and I wanna post about it... I might, but dunno XDDD Later, I guess XD

I also wanna write something...but I dunno what.

And then there're thesis and french... I hate them so much already XDDDD Lalala~ <3

Also, bonus:

Sorry, made me laugh way too much XDDDDDD

Strings and wind~

You know how strings always make you think of wind when you listen to them in music...? How, when they are pulled and caressed they mesmerize you mercilessly and you just willingly give in to the tune? How the pizzicatos and the way fingers stroke those thin threads lure you into a beautiful trance of rhythm and emotion? And how the melody goes in crescendo, and leaves you there, floating in the sky, in the beautifulness and harmony of its marvel and then brings you back down, safely, floating, like a feather until you touch back the ground?

I do know that and I love to feel it every time I listen to wonderful breathtaking music =w=

This one, for example. I've decided this one will be the theme song for this life's moment. It's been tough. I think I now understand what the End of the World meant. My world just ended...right when I turned 22. But I'm glad :) Because that means better things are about to happen. I am meant to change, to transform and to leave silly thoughts behind. I can't let myself down and I just won't :3

I have myself and my shinning stars. And I'm pretty sure they just won't let me down :3 I'll try my best to rise and shine as I always have. And fly away, as high as I can because that's partly what I came here for :3

Lalalala~ <3 I just hope to keep this mood up XDDD

I'll post about my b-day presents...later...next month XDD

Tomorrow's AVENGERS DAAAAAAAAAAY! :VVVVV I'm excited~ :BBBB

I dunno what to think lately XDDD

* My Acting teacher asked me whether I wanted to join his professional acting group XDDD

* My SS coordinator told me that, in the four years she's been in charge of that office, she had never been given an absolutely, perfectly spelled report and she congratulated me because of that.

I dunno what to think because...

* I've only been in that acting class for three days XDDD I think he only told me that because he somehow likes me and feels comfy with me... I'm quoting XDDD I like him. He's a nice person, but I ...dunno XD And maybe he told me so because he was drunk at the moment XDDD

* But my boss told me I should stop asking myself too much and go with the flow, because he must've told me that for a reason. Not only because he likes me...or was drunk XD

As for the second question...

* I dunno whether I should feel honoured...or feel sorry for all the people that have been through that place...before me XDDD

Lala~ C'est la vie, c'est la vie~ :3

Random stuff:

I opened a birthday gift today. Not yours, Kuro. Of course not. I'm being able to restrain myself from doing that! >w<9 Nope. It was Karu's :3

Here:

The Neverending Story by Michael Ende :3 It's special because it's her favourite book. Well, not this edition XDDD But you know, the story and all and the edition she bought :3 And it's as though she's given me a little part of herself to have with me for life XD

That's all I wanted to say for now XDD :3