Because I am proud of this~

Here's my Lara~ :3 I'm happy because I hadn't been able to draw or write about her. And, suddenly, I was able to do so yesterday and today I drew this :3 I'm proud because she looks pretty.

She's my OC and all that ^^

Sleeping little by little .___.

Gee, I got so scared today XD

It was a great day, tho XD My dubbing teacher told me I was really good at giving the intention needed to the characters I played and synchronizing my voice with the image on the screen... The only thing I need to do is find other ways to make my voice a lot more versatile. I think it is great. I only need to put a lot into it and I'm sure I'll manage to do something interesting :)

Then, my acting teacher asked me whether I could help his group playing a small character for the next exam (which is due next week .____.). I have no problem doing it, but I suddenly got stupidly stressed, it got hard to see and my head started aching :D

As I came home, when I was about to get down the bus, I couldn't feel my left hand's index and middle finger. And, as I went to the mart to get things for dinner, they kinda reacted but, when I tried to take out the money from my pocket to pay for the stuff I was taking, my ring and pinky fingers went numb and I couldn't move them. I was so scared I almost ran because I didn't wanna pass out or something on my way back.

My head kept pounding like hell and I went to sleep .___. It still aches a tad bit.

I think I should be sleeping a bit more and don't pull unnecessary all-nighters because they seem to be destroying my nervous system little by little .___.

So, yeah. I'm going to school tomorrow again in order to help my teacher with his play. And I haven't memorized those lines yet, even when they're quite easy and short.

But at least I got to know my character :) That makes it easier, I guess :D

Next is my last Japanese week. On May 28th I've my final exam and on June 3rd I have to pick up my grade. I hope to do well u.u I'd love to be able to keep up with it ;^; Because I think I'm not that bad and I need to learn Japanese to be happy in life (yeah, it's a matter of self-compliance and self-satisfaction and happiness. That's why it means so much to me) u.u

*sigh*

So...shall we begin?

Sweet baby Jesus in his cradle!

I'm not a trekkie, you know it. All I know are generalities. I've never been too much into space stories and all that. And yes, I accept it, my first motivation to watch this was Benedict Cumberbatch as the villain. 

Then, as time passed, my friend Al kept me informed about recent trailers and marketing stuff regarding the movie and I found myself being genuinely excited over this. And then she bought the first film because she didn't find where to watch it again (she does like Star Trek, for the record. The series and all) and then lent it to me so I could watch too (I did XD And I enojoyed it much~) and even helped me register to a special free screening last week's Wednesday...to which I didn't attend to because it was way too late at night, too far from home, right in the middle of the week, I still dunno how to drive properly, we had no car and shit happened the whole week, so...yeah.

She did go, tho, and she was really pleased. But, God bless her, she didn't spoil anything :)

Then, on Friday, it finally was opening night and D chan spoiled something and I was like RAEG :V!! and stuff. I couldn't go that very day because it was Mother's Day here and I was expecting to spend it with my mum (she left to check on my grandma and we spent the day cleaning and making dinner and all that .___.#).

So, yeah. Since we're in some kind of economic hardship right now, I didn't want to push it. I confess I did my best, I tried hard...so hard...but FUCK IT! I was so excited to watch it and I wanted to so much that I ended up making up money outta nowhere and, on Saturday, I finally went and watched it on my own (by this time, I was already engaged with Al to watch it on Sunday but, truth be told, I could hardly wait much longer). Obviously, I did go on Sunday as well and I plan to go, at least, a third time to watch it in 4DX

So, here we go. My impressions about it (I think I won't spoil anything...I'll come back here and change this if I get to say something important plot-wise. But I tend to talk more about performances and music and how much I liked it, so...I think there'll be nothing to worry about here. OK, some spoilers might be ahead, but they aren't that big of a deal):

I'm trying to be unbiased here XD

So! We all knew, because of the trailers and such, that this was gonna be packed with action and funny bits and absolutely intense, feelings crushers =w= Well, if you expected that to happen (as I did), you're absolutely in for a treat XD Star Trek: Into Darkness is a rollercoaster. You laugh, you get to the edge of your seat, you cheer for the good guys, of course, and enjoy them being their absolutely AWESOMESAUCE (for instance: Suuuuuluuuuuu as capitain and Cheeeeekovvvvv in engineering and Scottyyyyy in the bar and aboard the USS Vengeance :V). I was so sorry there wasn't that much Uhura (she was kinda pushed in the background as Spock's angry girlfriend u.ú) and McCoy, although he was great as a third of the 'danger-moral' compass (which also featured Scotty and Spock in it) and as some kind of comic relief, which he was from the very first film as well). 

One gets to ship Kirk and Spock (OK no or maybe you do. You're free to do so if you wanna. But their friendship! I love their interactions so much: since we start barely where we left them in the first film, their relationship and bond is still trying to grow strong...and strong it gets and it becomes, of course, one of the most important plot strings in the movie. Jesus, I can't talk much about it without getting all emotional, but yeah, you'll get to see, in the end... Their last two scenes together break my heart. Prepare the tissues, everyone), you can't really blame Kirk for doing all and acting the way he does and you feel so touched by all that. And you try to get Spock...and in the end...fuck it! I didn't cry, but I got so immersed in Chris and Zachary's acting that I was happily mindblown =w=

I also got excited because of the way Harrison keeps them all biting their nails because they don't know what he'll do next...and you even find yourself cheering for him (I SWEAR this hasn't got anything to do with he actor playing him. Cross my heart and hope to die). He's a damn bastard, son of a bitch and all the other things they call him throughout the movie...but he's GREAT at it. I was happily impressed by the physicallity of the character and how well it fits with his massive intellect and how perfectly classy and wild and cruel and full of rage and raw he is. But, apart from that, he's also got a certain serenity in him (not calm. He's not calm. He's serene) and he's astute and manipulative and he just won't stop before nothing in order to fulfill his purpose. I don't know. I dunno what else to say. I loved him. I think... Yeah, I think I found myself a new favourite villain .___. *pompomPOOOOM*

I watched it in 3D both times, the second one was IMAX. I must confess I always have conflicts with 3D because I hate wearing two pairs of glasses to watch a freaking movie. I loved it the first time. I didn't like it as much when I watched it on IMAX and I don't really know why .___. That's just my perception. And some of the action scenes were barely visible and sometimes I was like: "Whoawaitwhat?". Although there were others where you could see everything happening and the only reason why you went "whoawaitwhat" was because everything happened in a rush and from different angles. Also the colours are so vibrant and full that they made me wanna puke out rainbows out of sheer happiness XD The sound... Gawd, the sound... Because of all the explosions and action and all that, sound's a bit overwhelming X_x

Now, I must really confess...I'm still struggling with the ending. When I watched it the first time I was like: "Wut?". When I watched it the second time I was so invested in other things that I was like: "Yeah, no prob, mate". But I'm still not entirely convinced. I won't say much about it...but I'm still thinking it was rather...weak. Not the epilogue. The end to all of Harrison's story and all that. Open doors... Keeping them open on purpose... (?)

Also, I remember I listened to a recording of a special live event where they played all the music for this movie and Michael Giacchino, the composer, said he tried to convey all he could about Harrison's character and motivations and personality in one melody because it impressed him way too much. When I listened to it, I tried to do my own description of the character based on what I found in the melody. And, God I'm still thrilled about how much of the character's personality and strength's in that piece of music. I'm still overwhelmed by that. Apart from that specific piece (which is a bonus track u.u), my faves are London Calling, Brigadoom, Buying the Space Farm, The San Fran Hustle and Star Trek Main Theme, of course. London Calling's beautiful! When I first listened to it in the theater I was in awe °((>w<))° It's so...adkjasdaacdasda! And Buying the Space Farm just gives me the feels because it belongs to the next to last scene with Kirk and Spock ;^;

So, all in all, I liked it very, very, truly much. I enjoyed it lots...and I need to watch it again :9

Here, another promo :D

Because one just can't get enough of these beauties ;D

These kinda things are the ones that make you wonder why the world is such a bad place.

The real world is just so...tough and full of shit and shitty people.

I'm so scared now. I don't even wanna leave my house anymore.

Why is everything so fucked up? Why are people so mean to each other? Why is power on the wrong side? I'm really so scared. I feel so apart from mundane things that I usually love so much...but so raw, so vulnerable...so naked.

Damn it, world! Damn it, everything! I don't wanna leave my house anymore, but I'm also scared they can get in here and...do something.

I really am so scared, so frightened...so disappointed in life and people and the world. Why was I even born here? Everything seems so small...all the other "problems" one has as a human being. This is the real world and it is shit and such a vomitive stench comes off it and it makes you sick. I don't want to be here anymore, really.

I don't want to anymore.

Shit.