So, you're finally gone...

Trolling dragon D:< Sorrow full (yeah, like this), sly, sadic dragon. But, most of all, a transforming one.

XDDD

Lesse what the serpent's got for us now. I just hope it's way better than the last long tailed, mytical animal that came here to remove everything from structure. Because it was just so...ridiculously tough ._____.

Well, not that mu--... No, yes. Tough and full of sadness, thoughts, regret, random and unexpected comebacks and somehow...loneliness...despair...confusion...but then not so much of it and it was just so...perfect and so full of all the people I needed there. And then I was thankful...and happy and felt something was somehow missing, but it made perfect sense because it was most certainly meant to be that way.

I knew it from the start. I'd be lying if I said I didn't. 

Well, it was as though everything just fitted into its rightful place in the end. But there's still lots to be done.

And lots of fabulous, beautiful, encouraging things happened. Or they shone their brightest and became a lot more important that they already were.

The dragon rewrote from scratch, I believe. I still need to make some removals...and change some more things. But let's do this thing right. I won't let anything scare me or stop me from doing all the things I want u.ú

This is the Guajiro Dreams Come True Year. And I'm gonna squeeze all the freaking juice out of it. Because I feel I have to. Because I feel I need to and I owe myself some sort of movement.

There are still some things lingering in the air and tension's still hard to cut through. It's a bubble growing larger and larger and larger and getting way too near to an innocent, passing-by needle. I'm scared... Pain scares me. I was so pained this year that I spent most of it sick in the toilet (ahaha...haha...ha >3>). But I so fecking need to get over that and stare straight onto the world's face because I'm so eating it this year.

I'm supposed to be a responsible adult now... And I don't really look much like one ^^; Or so I've been recently and insistently told u.u

I'm so glad this is over... But this new beginning also scares me lots XDDD As much as it makes me feel enthusiastic about it. Let's do this! The Game Is On! >w<9

Thank you, Trolling, Feckin' Dragon, for all the things you gifted me with and also for all the ones you took with you...and all the debris you left me with. I'm going to build something a lot better this time, I promise :') Or, at least, I'll try my best to do it u.u With all my might u.u9 Not only this Serpent Year, because I'd be asking way too much from myself XDD But as much as I can do...I will do. This year taught me so much about myself and the others that...I barely feel as the same person who started writing this blog about a year-and-so ago u.u

This end finished with lots of wonderful beginnings. I want them to continue...and become a reality of happiness and accomplishment in my life u.u It's up to me to do it u.u

Welcome, Serpent, Snake, whatever. I'm willing to take you on ¬3¬ XD

(This is the uncensored version of the same entry written in my dA journal XD)

And precisely as things get better...

...something has to happen to make them bad :D

Well, not bad, but kinda spoil them a tad bit.

So, I was all happy and stuff because of my jap class and because I kinda finally felt I was having a slight push of support from the Hawks...but there was this memory of a certain someone lingering in the air and I didn't like it.

It was awful because I knew what would happen. But I didn't want to be much of a paranoid and I wanted to give myself the chance to stop thinking...

But in the end I couldn't stop myself and it fecking happened.

I knew you were going to DM me or something yesterday. And you fecking did. It wasn't a long or meaningful conversation (actually, it was quite plain and dull ._____. So weird) because I didn't answer anything important and it wasn't recorded either because, as soon as we finished talking, I deleted all messages and e-mails Twitter sent to me. "I felt the need to know about you"... And then I came to the point where I asked myself whether I called you or you called me. I think it's the second. Because I really was coping with this quite fine...until someone (maybe you) started implanting memories of you and stuff inside my head .____. Fecking brainwaves.

I was so happy and you kinda crushed my happy illusion. Now I feel quite annoyed. Eff you. And eff stupid Valentine's Day vibes, because I think that's mostly why you thought that it'd prolly be a good idea to think of me and contact me. And I utterly dislike that ¬¬

Yeah, I'm pissed because I hate it when these kind of things happen. And also because I still can't forgive you ¬¬ And it hurts so badly still.

Funny thing was...I slept well at night. I say it was funny because, any other time, I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from circling that matter in my head and I most certainly wouldn't have been able to sleep at all. But I did ._____. So that means...maybe I'm right at thinking it wasn't me calling you but the other way around.

Anyways, I needed help to cope with this and there were Sherlock and Al.

It's funny how I always obsess madly over some things when I'm feeling down. I must take note of that in case I ever get a partner...because it's sane to be obsessed with things and series...but being obsessed with someone is a whole new deal and it can be harmful u.u (Or so I believe, Iwek). I found two more artists to follow because they draw Sherlock stuff...but not only because of that. I love their drawing styles because...they are so cool XDDD And that makes me think I do wanna learn how to draw and have my own style because I don't wanna be grieving on the fact that I can't draw decently anymore XDD So, that's another resolution for this month XD

In case you wanna check them out, here & here they are :3 

Also, I'm reading fanfiction and watching vids and I think that's making me feel better again XD

So, I'm leaving you with a vid I found on Dailymotion related to The Hobbit XDDD It's relevant because of reasons. You might as well see, because it is actually funny XD

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xvx1rt_marry-kill-f-k_creation#.URW61R1dNu4

I've been renewing my stupid love for YGOTAS...and here's one of my favs...because of reasons XDDD

That's the version fangirls wanted to watch... But it was deleted in the end... Still, it is quite funny XDDD "In that case, Marik, if we win this duel, let us make sweet hatred together. Just you and me. Hating each other. All. Night. Long." XDDDDD

Ehehehehe~

Oh, and today's Shinji's birthday, SID's guitar. Aki's was on Sunday, SID's bass. I love them both. SID'll be releasing a new single on April :3 I'm way too excited for that one! They did such a good job with M&W... I hope they keep it that way :3

Aaaaaand...tomorrow's Tom Hiddleston's birthday ;v; God bless his beautiful soul because he's so sweet and amazing and I love him much :3

Sneaky, your four and your Disney princess are showing...

I know I said I was updating last Friday... But nothing much happened until now XD

First, I must say I do enjoy my Japanese class. It's pretty amazing! °((>w<))° I thought I was going to be way behind all those who had taken first level last semester with that teacher...but I'm pretty much fine XD But I sometimes get the impression some of my classmates think I know way more than I actually do u.u

I'm really happy, tho :DD Even when I get something wrong, I don't feel bad and just feel the will to keep learning to be better at it :3 It's been long since I last felt this way towards something related to school u.u

Second, I'm taking singing classes. And I feel so happy~ <3 But my teacher told me my voice is absolutely light and sweetens as it goes higher...which, immediately, made me think of a Disney princess or something. And it was something like that, actually...because she gave me the score of Someday My Prince Will Come of Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. I feel animals will come to me as soon as I open my mouth and start singing XD

There's this high-pitched note I dunno if I'll be able to hold... .______. I'll also be singing some barroque operas :D I'm slightly scared :D But quite excited too! °((>w<))°

And third...I've declared this year'll be the Guajiro Dreams Year :DDD Where I'll be making them come true :DDD I'm gonna do my best about it :3

Anyway, that's all I had to say =w=

Bonus:

Can you please explain me how are you so damn attractive? >/////< Damn, mister! >''<

Yeah, that means I like him much already >//3//>

And this XDD

I have a mighty need for this thing now XDDD Kid!Loki with his Stark Phone XDDDD