Whoa, Life! This is weird (but I like it)!

Last weekend was full of tears and hopelessness and lots of screaming and stuff like that. There were lots of emotions involved: from utter, unjustified happiness to utter (un)justified desperation. It's weird. It's been long since I last cried like that (almost exactly 11 months XD).

So everything just kinda finally exploded because I wasn't able to find a job. I'm in debt for one month of school fee and I was about to shoot myself (not really, tho) when I started telling myself I had to find a way to settle things out. So...I thought the best thing to do (and that was something I've had in mind for a long, long time...ever since I started school, actually) was to finish my thesis project and then go out to the big bad world and see whatever it has to offer (if it even has anything to offer yet). And so I finished my  new research protocol (I changed my study subject but I like this lots more and that kinda makes it easier :B), sent it to my consultant teacher, hoping she would answer back as soon as she could for me to register it at school and apply for a scholarship. I also started saving all I could from the first chapter I already had written and it so happened to fit beautifully, so... I've already 15 pages there XD

She did answer, by the way. And I can't tell how happy I am to have her beside me.

And then D chan (bless her, totally bless her) appeared and I told her all that happened and then she asked whether I was interested in being in a research project she's working at now, for her own consultant teacher, who's a researcher in our University. So, things happened and now I am working there. And I'll be there for the next year or so until I'm done with my thesis project and I'll be able to keep up with Japanese and take Noryoku Shiken and keep up with my singing and dubbing classes and I'll be able to pay for that and I'll still be at the choir. AAAAND I'll also be able to see D chan everyday as we did at the Film Library :')

Even my family are acting different towards me and I feel so calm and so much better...although I'm still struggling to change my old habits to good ones so I can do everything and don't die in the process XDDDD

And all that happened in less than a week. And I cried last night again, but out of sheer dumb happiness and disbelief and things that are finally paying off after such a shitty couple of years. It's the first time in life I've ever cried of happiness. I feel I've taken the right choices in life. Even if they are rather slow...but all's paying off and I'm so happy I didn't choose otherwise...no matter how many people I've left behind u.u There are some I miss...and there are some I feel happy to have left. That sounds horrible, but I think it couldn't've been otherwise u.u

Anyways, things are getting better and I hope they stay that way :') Imma try not to slow down :B

¡Fines de semana~! :DD

Últimamente me he enamorado mucho de mis fines de semana. Supongo que tiene que ver con que son los únicos días en que realmente hago cosas "productivas" o que veo a mis compañeritos del curso de doblaje (me pregunto si ya podré empezar a llamarlos "amigos". Confieso que les estoy tomando mucho cariño u.u) y ellos me suben mucho el ánimo. Ayer terminamos con el capítulo que dejamos pendiente la semana pasada (uno de Las tres mellizas) y platicamos al respecto. Fue maravilloso porque hicimos un capítulo de media hora en dos clases (lo cual es considerable si nos ponemos a pensar que, de la serie anterior, sólo avanzamos cinco minutos por clase...inche F ¬3¬). La verdad es que, cuando estaba frente al atril, me gustaba mi trabajo...pero cuando lo escuché al final me dí cuenta de que realmente me hace falta más .__. Aaaaaunque...ya me tardo menos en poner lo que tengo que poner XD

Y bueno, tuvimos la oportunidad de hacer voces distintas, entre las niñas (las trillizas), la Bruja Aburrida y Zeila, la gacela (que terminó siendo una reina)... Me divertí mucho haciendo a la bruja. Mis amigos (sí, acabo de decidir que ya lo son) me dicen que me quedaba muy chida. Cuando me escuché grabada ya no me gustó tanto, he de confesar. Con las niñas fue, más que nada, una cuestión de agudizar y endulzar la voz y no me quedaron tan mal. Pero la de Zeila me quedó bonita... Y eso que pensé que no me quedaría bien una voz de princesa o algo así XD

Terminamos la clase y salimos a platicar y shalalá. En eso estaba cuando mi profe salió y me dijo: 

—¿Qué haces afuera, Sneaky? ¡Órale, a trabajar! 

Yo lo miré y le pregunté: 

—¿Qué? ¿Yo? ¿En serio?

—¡Sí! Me hacen falta chicas. ¡Órale! ¡Para adentro!

Me metí a la cabina de nueva cuenta y me encontré con que me tocó el mismo personaje con el que apoyé la vez pasada en máster: una muchacha toda sensualota y mamona .___. Como en cada escena a grabar, primero vemos de qué trata y luego metemos el diálogo. Vi la primera escena... Estuvo leve. Sólo un filtro y una amenaza por teléfono a otra muchacha. Cuando vi la siguiente escena...no pude evitar pensar que se trataba de una película porno de bajo presupuesto por la baja calidad de la imagen. Cuando terminó la escena, mi profesor dijo: 

—Como puedes darte cuenta, en la clase de la mañana tenemos material apto para todo público. En la clase de la tarde, tenemos material más subido de tono. Si pongo esto en la mañana, capaz que Va (*una de las chavas más chicas de mi grupo*) se me va de espaldas. 

La escena, me explico, era cachondeo lésbico y luego un trío, con un güe :D (Güel, shet) No estaba tan, tan, taaaan fuerte...no tanto, al menos, cuando sólo tienes que ver. Pero cuando tienes que meterle pujidos y gemidos y el resto de la cabina está lleno de puros hombres, bueno...la cosa sí cambia considerablemente .___.

Y pues...hice lo que pude intentando, en la manera de lo posible, no sentirme consciente de mí misma. A final de cuentas, pensé, es un trabajo y la cosa es que se vea que no me espantan cosas como estas, pero... >3> La verdad no creo que haya salido bien... ./////.

Yapartemetocóhacerloconunchicoquemellamalaatención >//3//>

A-ny-ways.  Fue la segunda y última escena que me pidieron hacer y salí de ahí corriendo :D Antes, el profe me dijo: "¿Estás bien? ¿O ya te quedaste traumada?"

Me reí, nerviosa, y no pude más que contestar:

—No, está bien. Chamba es chamba, señor. Así las cosas...así es el bisne.

Luego salí a platicar con mis amiguis y a reírme de eso...y de otras cosas...y a frustrar los intentos de Ve y de JL de romper su récord de tiempo besándose porque Ve no dejaba de reírse de lo que yo decía.

—Es que no me quiero perder de las Sneakyaventuras... —decía cada vez que dejaba a JL con la lengua al aire.

Fue entonces que me dijeron que debería escribir un libro con mis chocoaventuras y venderlo porque sería gracioso: "Sneakyaventuras, por Sneaky". Ve también dijo que, cuando yo muera (y, aclaró, espera que falte mucho para eso todavía), seguramente las universidades del mundo se disputarán la custodia de mi cerebro para saber qué demonios traigo dentro. Después, Cobito dijo que él se lo robaría antes de que eso pasara y se lo pondría encima del suyo para transferir mis habilidades (aúnmepreguntocuáles) a su cuerpo. 

No pude evitar reír e imaginarme a Cobito kun fangirleando por yaoi, por Johnlock, leyendo fanfics en la madrugada y saltando y dando vueltas por todos lados como suelo hacerlo. O recitando Hamlet frente a Bellas Artes como hice yo la otra semana. Sería muy gracioso.

En fin, que fue un sábado muy divertido.

Y hoy fuimos a la Sala Nezahualcóyotl a escuchar a la OFUNAM. Y, no es por nada, pero la música en vivo es lo más hermoso y emocionante de este mundo. De verdad... Durante todo el concierto estuve perdida en los instrumentos, en las expresiones y gestos de los músicos, en la fuerza y la pasión del director y del pianista invitados. Mi favorito fue el Concierto para piano y orquesta en Fa de George Gershwin, el tercer movimiento. Dios mío... ¡Era jazz...combinado con música clásica! Alguna vez escuché que alguien dijo que una mezcla semejante no era posible porque ambos no se llevan. A lo mejor es una cuestión de gustos (a D no le gustó porque pensó que era muy caótico), pero esa pieza me convenció de que es posible mezclar ambos y emocionarse hasta el tuétano. En cuanto llegué a casa y encendí la computadora, busqué el concierto en internet. Lo escuché de nuevo: no se compara, para nada, con la intensidad de la versión en vivo y con la maestría y entrega del director invitado de hoy (Ronald Zollman) pero igual la dejaré por aquí :B

*suspiro* La verdad es que sí, estoy enamorada de esto (.-.) A veces me pregunto si realmente erré mi camino al escoger periodismo como carrera u.u No creo haber errado...pero supongo que jamás tuve el coraje suficiente para dedicarme de lleno al arte .___. Y, aunque sabía que amaba la música...amaba más escribir. Además, ¿quién iba a decir que realmente podía actuar? .___. ¡Desde la secundaria pensé que era una papa para ello! Y después no me preocupé en corroborar si era o no verdad porque actuar, presentarme frente a un público, nunca fue mi idea de "vida" XD

Como sea, de nuevo, estoy a disposición de la corriente XD A ver adónde vamos :D

New things and I feel rather old XD

I'm starting Japanese classes tomorrow. It's weird because it's gonna be so different. And it's the only thing I'm gonna do. I'm sorta scared, y'know? It's been quite long since I last had a language class .____. I hope I still have the flavour. Might post my first week experience by Friday or something. I dunno. I feel old because I'm certain most of my classmates will be younger people and I don't tend to get along them...or with many people of my age, actually .____. (There are happy exceptions of course u.ub) Oh, the youth! .____.

I spent the night at my amore's house. I wanted to leave before night came, but I failed epically, so... No XD And we talked and LOL'd and were quite happy. I dunno . I felt somehow free. I feel like that every time I am with him. It's as though I can totally be myself when he's around. That's the magic of my Orion's belt *le sigh* I love them so much~ <3 I'm really, truly pleased :3

We watched Big Time Rush together and he was laughing way too much with me XD

In other news:

I'm kinda...not nostalgic. I dunno how I am. I don't feel down, but I've been kinda bringing back memories and stuff...but I won't do anything about it. I think it's OK to remember things and feel pleased or sweetly moved about them and just let them rush through you and leave. I feel I'm in some kind of pause again, but memories are surrounding me and I see them and smile at them, but I don't feel I miss that person per se. I just feel I miss our friendship...but not that person...as in...I wouldn't want to see them because it'd be quite awkward. Is it weird? XD

Anyways, bonus:

This mini song!comic by Reapersun @ tumblr. I loved that song ;^; So many feels T_T And the comic art's just gorgeous u.u Sherlock related, so... But I think you may get it anyways u.u

She's got tickets to her own show...

But she doesn't want any of them to go-o-o~

Changed the lyrics XD

A-ny-ways.

Saturday's exam was great :DDD Well, at least it was...I dunno if "better-than-expected"'s the phrase I'm looking for, but yeah... Something like that XDDD

I managed to wake up when I had to (6:30 am, saturday morning X_x) and then I proceeded to "smart" myself up (which, in this case, means: Take a shower, put clothes on, brush your teeth and leave the building). Right before I ran through the door, my mum came out, with her bed-face still put, tried to smile and asked me: "You're already leaving? :D" I obviously answered "yeah :)" and she then told me: "Do your best, sweetie. Text me once you've done great :D" I smiled truthfully, hugged her, kissed her head and then left. She wanted to go and also did my dad but, in the end, they told me they wouldn't go because they didn't want me to be nervous u.u

When I arrived, my friend B was outside with her boyfriend. We chatted for a while and then the teachers got there too. We stayed downstairs and B gave me a yogurt because I was  starving and I didn't want my angry stomach to rawr in the middle of the play D: Then, V came and we went upstairs in order to get ready.

And so we did. It was such a show at that moment D: My classmates had to wear special make up to look like...dead people. And I had to look as though I just went out of the morgue ._____. Which means: make up... A LOT of it. I dunno how to make up... So I was waiting as everyone were busy with their own faces...until B came to rescue me...right after she had to comb and dress another girl's hair...which...wasn't really nice because her hair was dirty and stuff u.u

Anyways, the two hours we had to get ourselves ready ran absurdly fast D: Suddenly, all the people that went to see the exam were there and we were all frustrated and tired XDDD But we entered the room (it is a room indeed XD) and we started. Since I was the last one to enter, I waited outside and repeated all my friends' lines. At least the ones I knew by heart...not all of them. Surprisingly, I didn't feel nervous or anything. I didn't even go over my lines all over again. I was just so sure they would come to me as soon as I went in...because, happily, Lidia's intervention is quite smooth. So, yeah...

I took my glasses off and the place was quite dark because we were supposed to be inside a crypt, so I think that also helped XDDD

After we finished, they asked us to repeat the play for the people who didn't make it into the room... Legend says the school's headmistress was on the verge of tears at the end of it. So we did it again, right after the choir exam and the dubbing exam. And it went even better than the first one. The dubbing teacher told us he was nicely surprised because we managed to make him feel all the angst and drama and all that in his chest. So, he was happy because that was the point.

When he went near me, he hugged me (he always does when I see and greet him, but this time he did it way too tightly) and said: "You were amazing. You almost made me cry... Really, thank you. You were great...". I was happy because he's been an actor for more than 30 years...and he studied at one of the most prestigious drama school's here in my country... I was so honoured. I didn't see him staying any longer with any of my classmates... I felt special >//3//>

Then, photosphotosphotosphotos, smiles, tears, comments, congrats, stuff... B was amazing. She was my mother in the play :3 But she also helped us all with our outfits and make-up and everything. And she also, obviously, acted. She's an amazing person u.u

After we took off the make-up and the outfits we were wearing for the play and also managed to clean up all our mess, we left. Before that, we went and said good-bye to all the others. When I went to the dubbing teacher, he said, again, that I surprised him way too much. I think he was in awe because these were my first three months there (most of the cast had been there for like...six months already)... And...well, he doesn't know this, but it's true: I've never really acted in my whole life. Only in silly primary school plays...where I was Michael Archangel (always) and my greatest accomplishment was kicking the devil's ass (which also happened to be the boy I liked back then =w= XD). The only thing I've done is giving light-hearted, silly "shows" to my friends whenever I start talking...and reading novels, fanfiction and my own writing out loud...just because. And also because I love impersonating people and random movie-cartoon-anime-stuff characters...so...yeah.

After that, B told me I owned the play...and that she realized, that week, that she was jealous of me ._____. Then I told her not to be because she was AWESOME. And we both still needed to improve a lot u.u It's true. I admire her way too much u.u 

That somehow scares me ._____.

She also asked me not to leave this because she'd love to see me acting and stuff... And also whether I could teach English to the girl that's teaching her to sing, so she could teach me how to sing too... She's an opera singer ._____. XD

I sometimes think she's kinda pushy and bossy... But truth is...I'd love to learn how to sing :'DD But I can't teach anything to save my life, so... XDDD And I like B way too much :3 She's sweet and nice and caring~ XD

*sigh*

It's kinda sad because they're leaving to the next module and I'm gonna be alone (well, there'll be like...three classmates there...the ones that entered the class when I did... But my friends were the ones who are leaving  now u.u). There should be new people too...but I dunno u.u Obviously, it won't be the same u.u

Then we went to drink coffee and celebrate and it was nice ^w^ And I...somehow felt guilty because I somehow didn't let my parents attend the exam u.u *sigh*

On Sunday, E, another friend, uploaded some vids of the presentation... I linked Karu to them and she told me she liked the way my voice sounded very much. She was...somehow...overwhelmed... .____. I think she knows what she's talking about because she's seen this play like...thousands of times before, so... Then I showed two of those vids to my mum and she said she didn't recognise me at first...and less she did when I started talking. She said my voice sounded different. My dad says he felt something in his chest when he heard me talking the way I did... Even my brothers thought I was great...and that I really didn't sound like myself at all...

I guess that's a good thing... ^^;

But I've still got to improve a lot more u.u I won't get stuck! >''<9

Random notes...

* I feel so confident lately...and that makes me feel happy :3

* My thesis teacher hasn't sent me anything yet u.u

* SID's newest single's finally out. I got it like a week ago... I LOVED the B-side, as I tend to do. And I truly do believe it relates way too much to my Karma stuff ;^; *creys* (aka: she tried to translate it). Might put it here, someday...

* I might start Japanese next January...and another language. I dunno whether I should choose romanian or russian XD

* I've been back to Twitter... But I still don't feel all good when I twit u.u I'm still feeling slightly uncomfortable. But I don't feel as bad as I used to when I saw them both twitting to each other. Also, I'm still feeling impatient. But I still think it's not time yet...

* I got my driving license this morning =w= XDDD

...and bonus :P

VINCENT PHANTOMHIVE!!!! :VVVV From Kuroshitsuji =w= Sorry. I dunno why, but I love this character. Although...he doesn't really appear much because he's dead ._____. But when he appears in  flashbacks, I tend to have these fangirl attacks and stuff... XDDD Here you have him~ =w= In all his school boy splendor~ <3 XDDD

Am gonna keep it up and I'm doing my best to improve lots more! I feel so inspired to do that~ :3

Say hello to the 'Pool :B

* Stuff happened and now I'm writing this thanks to Deadpool XDD Oh, Wade, Y U so handsome? XD I think I'm in loooove~ <3 XD

* I'd better start taking this seriously...or else, I might end up doing nothing and that ain't an option >w<9

* I've been way too tired. As in...tired and...sick of everything XD I want it to end already. It just won't go away from me... But I should give it a try :9

* I love Luc Besson's view on action films and his male main characters. He always makes me love them u.u Maybe it's because his stories tend to have a slight taste of true love in them (as in...general true love) and I am a helpless romantic.

* Been listening to new music. Passion's coming back to me but it ain't here quite yet.

* Doors are closing and I still have to think a lot about what's gonna stay and what's gonna leave. I've two more months to decide.

* The hole's getting smaller...

* Today, in Japan, was the first airing of Magi. I didn't know the manga, but I did know SID was gonna make the opening theme. Here it is :D

Its single will be out in November, I believe :3 I read Magi's first chapter...and I loved Aladdin chaaaaan~ He's so cute XD

* Today's one of my beloved sister's birthday. I love you way too much, Karu. You know I do. I hope you had a fantastic day and that this year is amazing for you :) I'll be giving you your birthday presents whenever we see each other again :)

Points. Nothing else. I love V.I.P :DDD Back to Aivi, tho XD

P.S.: I'm still intrigued by Matt Smith's facial features ._____. XD

Hang on! Though we try...it's gone~ ♪

♪I hold an image of the ashtray girl

Of cigarette burns on my chest

I wrote a poem that described her world

And put our friendship to the test

And late at night

Whilst on all fours

She used to watch me kiss the floor

What's wrong with this picture?

What's wrong with this picture?

Farewell the ashtray girl

Forbidden snowflake

Beware this troubled world

Watch out for earthquakes

Goodbye to open sores

To broken semaphore

You know we miss her

We miss her picture

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Farewell the ashtray girl

Angelic fruitcake

Beware this troubled world

Control your intake

Goodbye to open sores

Goodbye and furthermore

You know we miss her

We miss her picture

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Hang on

Though we try

It's gone

Hang on

Though we try

It's gone

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Disintegrated it

For fear of growing old

Sometimes it's fated

(We) Assassinated it

For fear of growing old

Can't stop growing old...♪

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Present, past... People leave... Some stay. Very, very few.

Past, present. People come back... Some leave. A whole bunch of them.

I've been talking to a high-school friend. I thought we wouldn't have much to say to each other. It's been  about two years since we last saw each other. Surprisingly, even now, we're still laughing together and making plans. It ain't awkward, it ain't uncomfortable. It's very nice, actually. She was one of my dearest high-school friends and I always thought I loved her a lot more than she could've loved me because she never was warm enough...and she used to say she didn't like me being so...freaking huggy-dubby and stuff. So, I stopped doing that with her XD

Then, when we were on 6th grade, she told me half her heart belonged to me XD I laughed so much when she told me so, but it was sweet. I enjoyed being with her because we always talked lots and laughed... Even when we were talking about problems...we always laughed at them and were very keen on thinking everything positively. We also listened to music and drew and sang together and played and ran and laughed a little more like silly little girls when we were like...15 or something... I loved being with her. I always stayed till late at school in order to keep talking with her... I even took her bus home in order to continue...

I think I've never really done that with anyone else. She was an exception XD

*sigh* Now we're planning a podcast to laugh at our silly stuff. We used to record some of our conversations with my mobile phone and then laugh at them when we listened to them again. It was great.

It's nice to know we can still talk. I was scared we wouldn't be able to anymore. That's my biggest fear when it comes to friends because I absolutely love to talk and laugh and say stupid things XD

Anyways: This picture! That one's up there because I once made her recite the first part of it to me XDDD And she did! And also because this and another Placebo song (which I won't mention here because its name's embarrassing X///DDD) remind me very, very, very much of her =w=

She brain-washed me into them in the first place, anyways =w=

Well, not really, I already liked their music, but then stuff came and I forgot about them until she kindly presented them to me again and made me watch all the vids she had of them and lent me her CDs and all =w= In. A. Day. Just one. Yep XDDDD

It was fun tho. And they're good =w= I still love 'em XD

Madam Molko up there too, btw... Well, Mr Molko, more like XP

Here we go~ XDDD B-day post!

The so longed and wanted and desired b-day post XDDD Chanchanchaaaaaan~!

'Kay, not that much, but meh XDDD

I said I was gonna post it next month, didn't I? Well, it's October already, dammit! >''<

Such a short year D: So many things have happened. Gee. I can't even... u.u

Well, yeah, as a matter of fact... I can! I'm still alive, ain't I? But I haven't written anything for my thesis and then there's french...and those sudden urges of leaving everything attack me out of the blue and...well... XDDDD

Meh, here I come :)

I celebrated with my friends drinking freaking Nutella shakes at some restaurant! °((>w<))° They were so OMGsofreakingawesomeIlovedthem. 'Sides, I didn't know Nutella ice cream even existed D:

I dunno if I'd like to taste it. Might be way too sweet .______.

Anyways, here are the mighty shakes :B

So! We spent a nice time there and then went to have a walk at the park...and it was nice and all. At night, Ju called me to wish me happy birthday, but she was at work...and I was making her laugh. I'm such a bad girl :P Mwahahaha! XD

Next day (officially, my birthday), I went to my acting class XD I had a nice day~ <3 And I was almost leaving when a friend (yep, she's a friend already because she's been way too freaking nice with this freak and I vowed to love her ever since u.ú XDDD) asked me what did I want to do to celebrate my birthday. I told her I was gonna go and eat some tacos with my parents but she told me she wanted to celebrate with me: "Let's go get a coffee, at least. I don't want this to go unnoticed". So, we went to have a coffee. It was awesome :) My coffee and a birthday moka donut went on her ./////.  I was really happy, talking about my life and fandoms and stuff XDDD And they're such nice people :)

Then I ran back to the nest because my family was starving already XD So, we went to eat tacos :9 On the way back home, we bought a cake for me (my brothers, more like XD) and we ate and were happy. Also, lots of messages in Facebook, mostly, were received.

That was my birthday. Next day all I did was watch Thor =w=

So. Here are the presents :3

Spideypool in the first one!! :VVV Not in the second one, but it was great! :BB

Deadpool kills the Marvel Universe. Yes, I bought them. Yes, I read them XD

These are part one of my own present XDDD Well, actually, Karu bought the second one in the first pic u.u Thank you so much for helping my insane growing fanatism, Karurururúru~ <3 XDDD

Then :D

The Neverending Story by Michael Ende :3

As I said before, Karu gave me this one that week's Monday. I've started reading it and I love it so far :3 I'm right in the middle of it. And I sort of see a bit of myself in Fújur XDDD Lalala~

She also gave me this:

Yukio Mishima's Kamen no kokuhaku~ <3

I've been wanting to read this book ever since my team and I did a gay literature magazine project for Design class :3 A friend of that team sent me a piece of it...and I was like: "DAMN! This man..." I mean...the way he describes and the way he makes you feel whatever he's telling you about... My Lord... He's just amazing! >w< I wanna read this as soon as I can :3

Then, these:

A fish-y bookmark :3

A business card XD Ha!

A froggy keychain :3

A chococake~ XDDD

Those were all Aio's ^^ Thank you very much~ <3 You are so thoughtful.  It was nice seeing you again :3 The froggy keychain's already guarding my keys XD I loved it all~ <3

Hm...then... Oh, yeah! THE PACKAGE XDDD As I said, I was gonna open it until that saturday... And, after getting an inbox from Kuro, right at 12 o'clock, I got permission to open it XD And these are all the nice things that were inside it~ :3

Spidey and Deadpool pins~ <3

A Batman: The Dark Knight Rises glowing sticker~ <3

Marvel stickers~ <3

A poster~ <3

Same poster~ <3 XD

A Deadpool comic! >w< XD <3

And the letter~ <3

I loved it all, Kuro hun! I really did! Thank you very much °((>w<))° You're so nice with me ;^; I don't deserve you T^T9

And, last but not least, this :BBBB

AVENGERS!! :VVVV

Yup, yup!: Earth's mightiest heroes! °((>w<))° This was part two of my birthday present, from me to me XD

And those were my birthday presents :3

Also, I finally got my Raven beanie :DDDD

Yes, those are my eyes. Don't get too excited. Was thinking whether it was prudent to show the other pic where...my face actually appears...but no XDDD I still have to pay for it, tho XDDD

My head's way too big D: XDD Poor beanie XD

Lalala~ <3

So, that's it! :D I also went to watch this beautiful movie with Karu and I wanna post about it... I might, but dunno XDDD Later, I guess XD

I also wanna write something...but I dunno what.

And then there're thesis and french... I hate them so much already XDDDD Lalala~ <3

Also, bonus:

Sorry, made me laugh way too much XDDDDDD

Circling~

Today, I saw my amore. He's my best male friend and I love him very much. We met seven years ago in a Harry Potter club. He was Ravenclaw's Head of House and I was a newbie there. I don't even understand how the hell we ended up talking so much and...well...being friends. But I am glad, though. I looked up to him so much back then. I still do.

So, we had a walk at the very same park we met as we drank milk-shakes and talked about life and plans and school and work and fandoms...and stuff. We laughed lots. That made me happy. It was somehow reassuring. There weren't awkward silences of any type and we talked about pretty much everything...and went on talking more XD

That means we're still in the same channel XD And that makes me happy because he's one of those persons I want to have near me as long as I can... And I hope that long to be very, very, very long u.u

*sigh*

On a side note...

* As I walked to the avenue's bus stop I saw, in a little shop near my house, White Collar's first season. I remembered someone, of course~ XDDD <3

* I had an 8 in my first French evaluation: 8 outta 13 in the first paper; 12 outta 12 in the second. I suck so much XD I'll try harder next time, I guess... ^^;

They got here~~!! :DDDD

So, I had a nice day last Wednesday. Starting from the fact that I love my SS...but next week's my last week there u.u I twirled and laughed in my chair as Dan and I wrote stuff for our bossette (who is just lovely). The only bad things were stupid sun (which, you  should  know, I hate) and that I didn't bring my music with me u.u But I brought something to read, so the way back home was...decently nice (excepting the big girl sitting right next to me, sweating like mad and wearing a sweater... For Heaven's sake! Sun was hotter than HOT D: Why on EARTH would you do that?!)...

Anyways, that wasn't the point of this post XD The point was THIS! :DDDD

Sorry, safety first :D XD

Tadáaaaaa~~! It got here  right on Wednesday... And my stupid brother wanted to open it D: I wonder what he would've said if he did… XDDD 

...Actually, I do know what he'd do and it's not a good picture ¬¬

Anyways, even though you already know what’s it got inside, I wanted to post pic of it all here :D

When I first saw it, I was wondering: why is it so big? Well, not big, but…yes XD Bigger than a letter, I meant XD

So, after I took a pic of it and uploaded it to Instagram, I stared at it…and noticed these nice stamps :DDDD

Monkey One, Monkey Two and Monkey Three :DDDD Aren't they nice? :D They sure are nice! And they're even "texturized" and all XD

This is a very nice way of keeping it from tearing itself apart :)

Ah. It opened! Ö

There. And here it came. I first saw this…like this XDDD

???

And I was like: “Hm…what is this? o.o It’s in Jap~ :D Lesse…” And so, as I turned it around, I saw this:

!!!!!

And I squealed like a fangirl…which wasn’t good because my father and my youngest brother were there XD So I showed them…and they just smiled XD I opened it up and I tried to read... But I failed u.u XD

I loved how they featured each of them :DDD I was stupidly happy about it! °((>w<))° 

Then, I took the rest of the thingies out :D In this order:

Dunno why it appeared vertically. I took it horizontally u.u

Kuuruna hito tachi dayo~!!! XDDD They look way too cool here~~! :DDDD

THISISJUSTSOBEAUTIFULIWANTEDTOCRYMYEYESOUTOMO!

I was about to squeal at this one too... But I didn't because it wouldn't've been safe to show my dad and my bro X////DDD

EYEPATCH!!! PS, where's the rest? D: Tell me!!

When I saw this I was like... "PS? But where...? Did she write anything else? D: Where?!"

Then I saw this and shut up for a while~! °((>w<))° Brotherly love~! °^°9

And... as I tried to catch my breath I looked for Kuro's message...because I was sure you would've written something D: And then I found it. Right on the back of that BEAUTIFUL Cherikiss post card >3<

So, I think you may be happy to know...that I love your "random" concept and...that I ABSOLUTELY LOVED this gift from you, my dearest, DEAREST KURO HUUUUUUUUN~! Thank you so much~ ;^; You've made me so happy indeed u.u I'll try to send you something... I dunno what, but I'll try hard to find nice things to send you...someday ;^;

As for the Thorki fic... I'll be patient. I know you've got things to do u.ub XDDD

So...

BONUS THOR PROFILE!!! :VVVV

There =w=

Also... My Amore ordered three Ravenclaw beanies for us (by 'us' I mean: him, Aio and me). We've been wanting those for about a year now...or maybe more, am not sure. It was hard to get them, but in the end...they arrived on Wednesday too! :DDD He's got them in his house, but they're here! :D And we're happy about it =w=

This is the one :DDD XD

Nice mail day, wasn't it? :DDDDD XDDD

Dadaism... Yeah, right XD

Damn! I'm not good at this orz

*sigh* Anyway. Last post was that short and was a rant because my parents wanted us to go on a family trip to the beach. I'm usually not against it. Problem was I gave my parents a whole week of my time (during which I didn't even go out) and they didn't use it. And suddenly, when I had my whole week planned with my friends and all...they did this. That's why I was all pissed. I had to cancel all my compromises and all u.u

But it was a nice trip :) I might post some pics... Later XD

Hm. I really don't have much to tell. Although...last week was kinda full of things. I saw a friend I hadn't seen in a long, long time. She has changed lots. And she was angry at me because I neglected her way too much. I must confess I am not a constant person (as you can see). It isn't because I don't care. It's just I tend to feel restricted when I have to see/go out/talk to people every day or...when I don't really feel like it...or when I am busy u.u I sometimes feel I'm pretty selfish and that I am not good-friend/good-girlfriend material XD;;; But that's because I think friends are there always... Even if you don't talk to them often... As long as you're there for then when they need you and they're there for you whenever you need them, I think it's great.

Maybe that's what happened. She needed me and I wasn't there for her...

Also, I like to have fun with friends. And...sometimes I felt somehow...stressed when I was with her, because all we talked about were problems u.u I dunno... I did like to spend time with her...but she was so negative sometimes. And I felt, too, that I didn't have much to share with her, since I'm still like...a child-adolescent-stupid girl and she was very keen in growing up u.u Also, I didn't know what to say when she told me about her situation. I had no way of giving my views on the matter. I felt nothing I could tell her or do...could help her in any way. I guess... I simply gave up. I think she's my first big failure.

Anyway. We first talked on the phone. She called because she wanted me to give her back a book she lent me years ago and she also wanted to give me two books I lent her. So, we talked. Obviously, we couldn't skip the main reason why we hadn't seen each other lately. And she told me about her life. I got depressed. She's had a tough one, as always. And I wasn't there. I felt like shit, because I wasn't there for her when she was going through such difficult times. But...what would I've done in case I was there?

I truly have no idea. And I felt useless. I got so self-conscious, depressed and so emotionally drained after that conversation that I fell asleep on the sofa as soon as we hung up. Next day, I saw her. I trusted we would only swap books and leave, but she asked me whether I had something else to do... So, I stayed with her until she did what she had to. We talked. It wasn't awkward. But I still dunno... *sigh*

**

My stomach was upset since Friday because of an indigestion prob D: That and, I think, the stress of trying to register the last two classes I'll take as a degree student, caused it XD Nonetheless, that didn't stop me from staying at my sis's with my other sis (yep, Karl, you're officially my sis now. God bless you, dear, and may Odin be ever with you) and watch yoyo animu with them XDDD It was pretty much fun. You know, because of fangirlism and stuff.

We didn't sleep, btw.

They also suggested something for the stupid story I'm trying to write. Tú (that's my brain's name) likes the idea. I'm still in denial =w=

And today...realisation hit my face, mercilessly. I... I'm about to finish school. No more classes, no more HW, no more...school life. That made me feel self-conscious again. I mean, my sister is having her graduation party in ten days (her mum's paying my ticket... That's so nice of her ;^; I'm in debt). I'm having mine on January, but I don't want any of that shit >''< I don't like many of my classmates. I'd rather have a small meeting with all the people I do like and keep in touch with them u.u Or to have that money to pay for my dubbing classes u.u That's one of my silliest, more desperate, biggest dreams ever.

I'm about to finish my social service in a month. I still need to do that stupid English exam X_x I'm scared! TOT9

Also, I realised I'm still seeing two friends from High School up till now. That's a lot. And I still want to see them. That means they're VERY important to me. And I'm sure Karl is gonna be one of those significant friends too XD

Am also starting an online course of french reading. Should be interesting. I wanna study japanese on my own again :3 So, I might, since I'll have some free time in my hands.

*sigh*

So. That's been it. Feelings all over the place, innit? I'm selfish and I'm self-conscious.

Oh, I've just listened to SID's newest album :D I might post a review here later~ :3 All I can say now is...I FREAKING LOVE IT!! °((>w<))° But, that's the fangirl speaking XD

April 21st is a cool people day~!

Today I'm gonna upload about three posts in a row XDD Haha...ha. I hope none of them are too long ^^;

So, let's start! >w<9

Last Saturday was April 21st. It's quite funny because lots of fabulous people were born that day. At least people I like, I admire or I used to admire (you'll see why if you ever finish reading this post XD).

First, James McAvoy, who makes me soooo happy with his sexy accent and his bromance with Fassy XD It's so much fun to fangirl over him. And I just LOVE his eyes and his silliness =w=b XDDD

This was stolen from Le tumblr, of course XD

Then, Charlotte ("Charlie", for me) Brontë. I've only read one of her works (Jane Eyre, of course)... But I loved her :3 It was... I was about to say "brilliant", but I think that would be kinda ironic XD Because it is so dark (they say she's gothic) at the beginning, but then, as it develops, it turns lighter and warm...and then comes back to the darkness... And the way she describes things, and feelings and in the end...!!! OMG! You gotta read it since I'm this bad with words =w= XD

Here's Charlie :D

Also, my Aztec Prince :3 He's one of my friends. My best male friend at school and I love him way too much because he makes me laugh...and also laughs at my stupid jokes and voices :3 He's been so nice to me and I hope we can still be friends...later on :3

Those are his shoes XD I stole this pic from Karl :3
Not from here, but from her Kaohon XD

Theeeen, Hoshino Katsura... Yeah. I used to love her style so much and her story... I dunno what's happened to her ;____; I think I'm gonna go cry for the good times T^T9 XDDD But...since she made me so happy and thanks to her work I met some valuable people... I can't stop thanking her u.u

Here she is XDDD

And last, but not least: Konishi Katsuyuki, a seiyuu :BB Ow, I know >> Insane fangirlism again >> B-b-b-b-b-but! D: I love him XD Makes me laugh and makes me shiver so much :B Lately (and also a year ago) I was fangirling over him because he voices Takano Masamune from Sekaiichi Hatsukoi u.ú And he makes me so happy there (you might see how happy he makes me if you stick with me to the third post of the day) XD

He also voiced Agatsuma Soubi in Loveless, America in Hetalia and my dearest Komui Lee in DGM!! >O< :BBB

Yeah, I loved Komui! u.ú I also felt kinda identified with him...sometimes... :-" And am putting a Komui pic...because of that! >w<9 And also because I kinda miss him u.u XD

Stole this from Lexi9890's dA

So... Happy (late) birthday to them all! :DDDD

The B month

I only posted twice on February D: I should be ashamed of myself D: Shame, shame, shame!

Shame indeed :DDD But let us save that for later XD

March is always a b-month. B, because of "busy" and all the "birthdays" there are to celebrate XD

My bad for having so many martian friends =w= XD

I've so many things to tell here... But I don't really feel like doing that now. Only...last week was the weirdest one in my whole life... February sure is trying hard to become my "Intense month" every year since I was about...14, I guess *sigh*

But I have a feeling this particular March will be something...

I've been playing an interesting game with A. So cheesy and corny (and all the other things related to those two words) that I can't take us two anymore u.u XDDDD Yeah, right! It's been quite fun XDDD I also saw her today... I thought it was gonna be awkward...but it wasn't! XDD I also thought I was gonna keep quiet if she started teasing me that way... Surprisingly enough for me, Tú (my brain) came to rescue me and replied as I had the rest of the week XD

It was really good fun. I was glad too, because I hadn't seen her in a long time... Well, not that much, but yeah...

No pic today, sorry u.u

Loooong, yet short.

That's how this week's been D: I did lots of things and yet I felt I didn't do much D: Full of contrasts? Yep, indeed. And next week, I'll be back to school already D: How's that for a fast return?

Very fast >''<

So...on Monday I did go to Chinatown. It was quite nice...except for the fact that a woman pulled a pair of crackers right beside me, so...I think I'm half deaf D: And I ate a pair of BBQed pork meat manjuu and it was delicious because it was warm...and nice -w-

Sorry for the lame pic >''< XD

Then...on Tuesday lots of things happened. I watched this film, La otra familia. And I also watched Sucker Punch's special features. I drew and then watched a pair of Code Geass's chappies... And then...well, my grandpa. So, I cried. And then spent most of the night chatting with friends and looking for more McFassy on tumblr so I stopped feeling bad and started laughing again ^^;

On Wednesday, I went to my grandma's. But before that, I cried all I could at home, because I was supposed to try and cheer her up u.u And so we did...my bro and I, I mean. And there we found my male and female cousins. And we laughed lots and talked and all. We managed to get my grandma something to eat and all.

As we came back home, I cried again XDDD Am such a crybaby indeed >>

On Thursday, I went back to my grandma's with my mom. And, as we were there, the postcard Ju sent me for Xmas (yeah, I know WTF?! XD) finally arrived :3 I was quite happy because of that ^^ 

Hahaha, sorry XD Addresses XD

Then I went to the dentist and they finally took the upper brackets away from my teeth :D I felt they were gonna fall, tho >> I watched xmfc again >> Aaaand...I spent the whole night with McFassy, my Enric and watching YGOTAS u.u

And today, I went to the dentist again. I finally gave my school tutor the report I had to give her (relating my academic progress and all that >>). And that was pretty much all u.u And now I have a sparkly blue teeth retainer... And it makes my teeth ache >''<

And I still can't get over McFassy orz

I have to stop fangirling before coming back to school. Otherwise, I might prolly sneak out classes trying to look for school's WiFi and all in order to keep staring at them >> I've got pics of them in Enric, tho~ :D

And there are some pics where James kinda reminds me of someone I don't want to. But I can't stop staring at him >''< And all those videos...GAWD!

Again, it's all Kuro's faaaaaaault!! °((>''<))° T^T XD

And I should be polishing Karma's first chapter because I planned to post it tomorrow...before classes start... >> Oh, look! I have to write my schedule to know where I'm havin my classes >> *runs away*