I'm still alive XD

Yeah, I am. Just posting here for you to know that. Not many things have happened. Most of them have to do with my acting class and growing nostalgia... I've been watching movies, reading and not doing much. I think we won't be celebrating Xmas here in the nest... Or, at least, not a very merry one. Dunno. The feeling here's kinda down and it makes me sad.

I need money too u.u Haven't got much... I'm slightly worried about that. Need to find myself a job already.

On the bright side, Karu gave me the first (and maybe only) Xmas gifts of this year. And I feel all shitty because I think I won't be able to get her something. There are people I wanna see, but I might not be able to because of the lack of money again. Fecking money, why do we all need you so much? And why aren't you here? ¬¬ You piss me off to no end, but don't go away. Because I fecking need you.

I'm trying to wake up my manliness... But unfortunately, my femininity seems to be rising instead :I At least when I dress myself D: XD I hate that. I hate the damsel in distress role. I don't think (and I don't want to think) it goes well with me. I need to let go of certain things, but stupid nostalgia and Twitter doesn't help much, so I'm thinking whether I should just shut that bloody thing down. For my own good XD

Don't think I haven't been checking your blog, Kuro hun. I'll comment on every single post you've uploaded as soon as...I dunno XD But, mark my words, I will! XD

On a side-note:

I started watching Sherlock about two weeks ago. On Wednesday I finally managed to watch the first episode complete. Then I watched the second one...and started the third one. Yesterday I watched the fourth and part of the fifth. I finished watching it all tonight and-I-fecking-loved-it. I really, REALLY did. I might review it here. I'm not good at reviewing stuff, but I have a mighty need to do this because it's worth commenting and discussing and all. Although...don't expect much since I suck so much at doing that...and at English too, so...

Bonus :DDD

In order to commemorate this new acquisition, here's this, from geothebio @ tumblr XD

I need to go the fuck to sleep too XD

Strings and wind~

You know how strings always make you think of wind when you listen to them in music...? How, when they are pulled and caressed they mesmerize you mercilessly and you just willingly give in to the tune? How the pizzicatos and the way fingers stroke those thin threads lure you into a beautiful trance of rhythm and emotion? And how the melody goes in crescendo, and leaves you there, floating in the sky, in the beautifulness and harmony of its marvel and then brings you back down, safely, floating, like a feather until you touch back the ground?

I do know that and I love to feel it every time I listen to wonderful breathtaking music =w=

This one, for example. I've decided this one will be the theme song for this life's moment. It's been tough. I think I now understand what the End of the World meant. My world just ended...right when I turned 22. But I'm glad :) Because that means better things are about to happen. I am meant to change, to transform and to leave silly thoughts behind. I can't let myself down and I just won't :3

I have myself and my shinning stars. And I'm pretty sure they just won't let me down :3 I'll try my best to rise and shine as I always have. And fly away, as high as I can because that's partly what I came here for :3

Lalalala~ <3 I just hope to keep this mood up XDDD

I'll post about my b-day presents...later...next month XDD

Tomorrow's AVENGERS DAAAAAAAAAAY! :VVVVV I'm excited~ :BBBB

I dunno what to think lately XDDD

* My Acting teacher asked me whether I wanted to join his professional acting group XDDD

* My SS coordinator told me that, in the four years she's been in charge of that office, she had never been given an absolutely, perfectly spelled report and she congratulated me because of that.

I dunno what to think because...

* I've only been in that acting class for three days XDDD I think he only told me that because he somehow likes me and feels comfy with me... I'm quoting XDDD I like him. He's a nice person, but I ...dunno XD And maybe he told me so because he was drunk at the moment XDDD

* But my boss told me I should stop asking myself too much and go with the flow, because he must've told me that for a reason. Not only because he likes me...or was drunk XD

As for the second question...

* I dunno whether I should feel honoured...or feel sorry for all the people that have been through that place...before me XDDD

Lala~ C'est la vie, c'est la vie~ :3

Random stuff:

I opened a birthday gift today. Not yours, Kuro. Of course not. I'm being able to restrain myself from doing that! >w<9 Nope. It was Karu's :3

Here:

The Neverending Story by Michael Ende :3 It's special because it's her favourite book. Well, not this edition XDDD But you know, the story and all and the edition she bought :3 And it's as though she's given me a little part of herself to have with me for life XD

That's all I wanted to say for now XDD :3